Our Rock and Stronghold

October 23.2011

Clinging to a rock 

Psalm 42:5-6

"Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in God for I shall again praise him, my salvation and my God."

Oh how I love our God. He is so faithful and I never have to worry whether He is going to take care of me. These verse were perfect for me today because my heart has been really heavy for the past few days and my soul has been somewhat downcast. Not in an unhealthy way, but in a way that I knew I needed to sort out the turmoil that was within me. As I spent time journaling tonight, I was reflecting that this is one of the first times that I have truly been able to know in my head and my heart that God IS my stronghold and my rock. He IS going to get me through this season and He IS going to be faithful to show me what is actually going on in my heart. For now, it is waiting. Waiting on Him to faithfully show me what to work through and how. I am at peace knowing that God will show me in His time. The turmoil is uncomfortable, but I know there is a reason. 

I am praising Him today for His faithfulness for always being there...for always being my rock and my stronghold!

Trusting

Trust

October 6.2011

Trust

Trusting today seems to be a little bit harder today. I seem to be somewhat overwhelmed with my body today. It is not that I don't ultimately trust God with my body, it is just physically I feel overwhelmed and I am needing to trust God to give me wisdom as to what to do. Despite being overwhelmed, God provided me with a plethera of verses.

Colossians 3:2

"Think about the things of heaven, not the things of earth."

 Such a good reminder since I seem to have been thinking of the things of the earth today. 

James 1:12

God blesses those who patiently endure testing and temptation. Afterward they will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.

I am definitely having my patience tried today and I need to really remember the verse in Exodus 14:14 that says "The LORD will fight for you, and you have only to be silent." 

I LOVE that we have a God that can fight for us and WILL fight for us. I am living in that hope today! 

A Godly Man

A Godly Man

October 2. 2011

Father and Daughter

Tonight I went to see the movie "Courageous". I left the theater thinking about what I want my future husband to be like and what kind of father I want my kids to have. There are a few things that stuck out to me in particular after the movie: 

1. I want my husband to be a:

    - Provider (Genesis 24:67)

    - Protector (Genesis 26:6-7)

    - Priest (Genesis 24:63)

These are all really important characteristics to me as I am still blessed to be single. I can wait for the man that is going to meet all of these characteristics and lead a house the way God would intend for him to. 

2. A man who leads his household by this verse: 

Joshua 24:15

"...But as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.”

I can't wait to meet the man who is this. Until then, I have the privilege of praying for my future husband!

Calling on Him

Calling on Him

October 1. 2011

Praying

Right now I know I need to "call on the Lord" because I need wisdom and encouragement. I am having one of "those" days where  I am just downright discouraged about my body. Even after working out and eating healthy today, I still am frustrated. I wish that I was able to fit into clothes and actually feel good about my body, but alas, today I don't. I know I can't stake everything on how I "feel" and I try and get past that, but tonight I just am discouraged. It is days like today that I can't wait to go to Heaven. 

I have talked to people who have struggled with eating disorders in the past and I have also talked to counselors about it. It seems that everyone says "it is a mental thing that you just have to battle." BUT, in my case it is more than that. I physically feel awful and uncomfortable. I don't want to feel that way. I want to have energy and feel good, but I simply don't. 

So, tonight, I am clinging to the verse God gave me a couple of days ago: 

Isaiah 55:6

"Seek the Lord while you can find him. Call on him now while he is near." 

I also know that not only is God telling me to call on Him, I also feel that today He asked me to ask for prayer for wisdom and discernment about what to do. So, that is my next step...asking someone to pray for me. I am not sure who or when, but I know I need to. I KNOW that God is so good in that He will provide that person for me soon! I am so thankful I don't have to deal with this stuff alone!