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It has been quite a while since I have blogged. A lot has happened since then some good and some bad.
The other day I was looking at this beautiful terrarium I was given when I left my job at the church. One of the nicest things about this terrarium is that it is low maintenance. I do not have a green thumb and pretty much tend to kill every plant. One day I happened to notice that some of the leaves on the plant were dying. I was curious so I took off the lid and once I looked around, I noticed there were worms that were taking over and killing the plants. This was unfortunately a reflection of my own life at the moment. You see, the worms that had taken over in my life were bitterness, unforgiveness and a lack of faith. I have been trying for so long to make things "ok". To reconcile what my last job was and to try and move on pretending it is all ok. In reality, it is not. There are hurts that I have taken from it that have turned to bitterness. Upon reflection of where my heart is, there is some unforgiveness that I have not allowed God to heal. Part of me wants justice and part of me wants reconciliation. All of this is killing me though.
There is no "quick fix" (although I would LOVE to have a quick fix) and unfortunately the wounds from the past have caused some worms to destroy my own heart and even worse, my walk with the Lord. I have decided to take one step at a time...my first step is reading the One Year Bible. Baby steps...15 min a day and I am hoping to clear those worms out.
As for my terrarium, I am going to have to clean it out and start all over. But even that will breathe some fresh life.
