Something special to me

Lately I have been on this journey of trying to figure out what my dad was like since I don't remember much of my childhood. I received a special gift tonight to begin the celebration of my 30th birthday. I am beyond blessed as I go into my 30th birthday.

God is doing something new in me. He is opening my eyes to the past...to the childhood I don't remember. I just sit here and smile as God is working. It is absolutely amazing!

Trust...continued

Funny thing...yesterday I was just sharing with someone about my fears about children dying in their sleep. Kind of morbid, yes, but a reality. Then, there is always worries that I have about family and the many relationships, however, God convicted my heart. It is not mine to carry...it is God's. Regardless of what happens with my family, future kids, etc...

Yet another lesson in TRUST. 

What family issues do you need to give to the Lord today?

Trust

I keep coming back to this "trust" thing. Today I was there again. I was in a hurry again and needed a few minutes of refreshment from my Savior. Why is it that lately I have only seemed to have a "few" minutes for Him in the morning? Thankfully, He knows my heart and will continue to speak to me as long as I am willing to hear. This morning it was the ever ringing word...TRUST. Oh how I love how the Father speaks to us and reminds us that we have HIM. 

This week I have the privilege of watching my nephew while his parents are away on a trip for work. Just as he is trusting me to take care of him while his parents are away, it is in that same way I need to trust my Father. 

 My nephew: Rhys.

As I got to work this morning, He reminded me of a song He so often uses to remind me of where I am and what He wants my heart to be. 

God is doing so much and I have so much to be thankful for! He gives me reason every day to TRUST in Him and to be thankful for what He is doing in my life. Although sometimes my focus can be a little off, I am reminded today of how worthy He is of my trust. He will "never leave nor forsake me" (Deuteronomy 31:6).

Do you need to sit at the Lord's feet and just be...listening to Him? 

This is who I am

Everyone has days where they doubt something about themselves or beat themselves up. God shared His heart with me through this song during a time when I really needed it. It helped pull me out of the lies I was believing and see what God was doing...and what He wanted for me. I am HIS...that is the only place my hope is secure! When life, lies and people can make us doubt, remember that God created YOU and wants you to remember that. 

This is who I am 

by: Shane and Shane

I am a new creation,

the old is passed away

and I’m made new

I’m made new.

And I have been adopted,

the door is opened up

for me to know you

be like you

This is who I am

I’ve been born again

the Cross is my defense, my hope secured

now my life is in Your Hand

on Your every word I stand

Lord I’m finding who I am in all you are

When my heart condemns me

tells me I am guilty

Your greater

Your greater

Jesus you have searched me,

and even in your finding

You have loved

and You love me

This is who I am

I’ve been born again

the Cross is my defense, my hope secured

now my life is in Your Hand

on Your every word I stand

Lord I’m finding who I am in all you are

For He mad Him who knew no sin

To be sent

On our behalf was crucified

Oh that we could be the righteousness

Of our creator

I am a new creation,

the old is passed away

and I’m made new

I’m made new.

This is who I am

I’ve been born again

the Cross is my defense, my hope secured

now my life is in Your Hand

on Your every word I stand

Lord I’m finding who I am in all you are

This is who I am

I’ve been born again

the Cross is my defense, my hope secured

now my life is in Your Hand

on Your every word I stand

Lord I’m finding who I am in all you are

What doubts do you need to bring before God and allow His truth to sink in? 

Healing + Allergies

A weird peace came over me this week as I found out that I once again was allergic to almost everything. I have been battling with weight gain, allergic reactions and just not feeling well.

BUT GOD.

He brought me to this amazing doctor who took the time to investigate what could be happening in my body and really wanted to help me figure out how to feel good.

It was not that the other doctors didn't try, it just came up showing nothing.

I have been telling people that maybe God didn't really heal me of my allergies before and they just manifested themselves in different ways I didn't notice, but I don't think that is accurate now. I DO think that the Lord healed me of my food allergies for a time, but for a different reason. I think He wanted to show me how to treat my body well, how to eat healthy and how to teach my body to crave the right things. I had spent years pushing bad food down my body only to throw it up again and again. I never wanted anything healthy unless I was going to have to be forced to keep it down.

Now, my body craves healthy. Not my mind, but my body. I have had an unhealthy relationship with food for so long that this was a breath of fresh air. 

God is so faithful to take us through tough situations and truly heal us. 

Has God healed you in a way that was unexpected?