Letting Go
September 11.2o11
Letting go...not something that comes naturally but definitely is needed. In the past few days, I have really felt the Lord tugging on my heart to "let go" of the diet mentality. I remember one of my friends saying that she just embraced food and didn't really worry about it when she gave up her eating disorder and she actually is skinnier now and doesn't really worry about what she eats. When she told me this, I had a really hard time believing that it could actually work for me and that it was the route God had intended for me. God has not necessarily taken me down the same road she has and I am still having to sacrifice the fact that I have gained 60+ pounds since I gave up my eating disorder, but one thing I know for sure, He wants me to let go of the dieting and just live life making healthy choices but not being obsessed. Quite honestly, my mind is always focused on the next "diet" or the easiest way to lose weight, but instead I need to steady my focus on Him and the rest will come together IF He wills. I would LOVE to be smaller and more fit than I am right now and I still get frustrated at where I am at and that I can't do much, but I know that He has a purpose behind it...I just don't know what it is.
So I am really going to try and let go from now on. I know it is not going to be easy, but it will be best. I was reminded of a really good verse today in church that can apply to this situation in particular:
Psalm 84:11
"...No good thing does he withhold from those who walk uprightly."
God knows the desires of my heart and He is not allowing me to lose weight for a reason. Now I just need to remember to TRUST that He really does have my best interest in mind. What a loving Father we have.
