February 26.2012
God is so good.
I decided not to go to the Night in Prayer this year because I really felt like I shouldn't go. I know it sounds bad that I didn't want to go pray, but for me, if I went, I would have only been going out of obligation and honestly not the right heart. It would have been a lot easier for me to go, lead a group and just be there, but for me, the hardest part was not being there. I wanted to "know" what was going on, to be a part of it (kind of like the cool crowd in high school), but God called me back. I would love to say that something amazing happened (God spoke to me in the middle of the night, my niece was born, etc..), but nope, just sleep happened.
The next day, I was consumed by the desire to still get a name of God card. I knew that since I work at the church, I could "randomly" pick a card for myself for this year. I kept hearing this voice saying, "No. Don't manipulate the situation. Couldn't I give you a "name" or a word for this year?" So, alas I submitted to the Lord and just trusted that He was bigger and IF He wanted me to have a word for the year, He would give it to me in His time.
When I got home, I saw a card, beautiful package that contained earrings and a card specifically pulled for me by my roommate. I honestly laughed out loud at God. God gave me something I didn't expect and that I had left at His feet a few hours before. The even better part was what the card was: "THE GOD WHO SEES ME". Exactly what I needed for this season in my life. Here is what was on the card:
THE GOD WHO SEES ME
Verse: "You are a God who sees me." (Genesis 16:13)
Verse on back: "...every moment You know where I am." (Psalm 139:3)
I am simply blown away at the beauty of God. Not only for "surprising" me with a card, but how hand-picked that card was for me. He knew what I needed to hear...even down to the verses that were on the card.
It was absolutely perfect. God does see ME. He knows my needs and provides. I am in awe of the one who loves me more than anyone else can!
