Lately, I have had a lot of reasons to lose hope and quite frankly, I have given in to my "Negative Nancy" mentality a few times. I know this about myself and I have tried hard not to allow myself to go there, my sometimes my mind doesn't always follow my heart. In the depths of my heart, through hurt and confusion, I have let myself go to the "worst case scenario". The good that has come out of it has been that God and I have had a lot of talks and quality time.
It has been an ending of an era and I have had a hard time truly believing that it is over. Usually when a door closes, God has another door that is open which is so much hope and encouragement. I am not sure when that door will open or how far away it is, but I continue to be reminded by the verse in Isaiah 30:21 that says
"And your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying, “This is the way, walk in it,” when you turn to the right or when you turn to the left." That is where I am at right now. One step at a time and lately it has been one moment at a time.
I felt so pursued by the Lord today, though, because He knows me in my weaknesses and my failures. He knows my "Negative Nancy" attitude and how I am so afraid of the "worst" happening, yet He still loves me. I hate to admit it, but I had lost hope, but in His gentle way, God called me back to Him to believe that He was bigger than my mind and heart by giving me this verse.
Psalm 14:7
"Oh, that salvation for Israel would come out of Zion!
When the Lord restores the fortunes of his people, let Jacob rejoice, let Israel be glad."
When the Lord restores the fortunes of his people, let Jacob rejoice, let Israel be glad."
I had hope this morning. I was reminded that He is my "King Forever, Friend and Savior" yesterday and I have held onto that today. When all else fails, He IS here for me and He is my true friend. I am so thankful for how much He loves me and how much He cares about every detail of my life.
