I HATE change. It is the hardest thing for me to deal with for some reason. I am a type A personality that wants to run anytime change comes my way. That running usually prolongs the pain and makes it harder than if I were to just embrace it.
For the first time, I feel like God is helping me to push through the pain of change and a big trial. I would say that the trial I am going through right now is one of the 3 top life-changing, earth shattering trials in my life. I KNOW God is going to do something amazing out of it and my desire is for Him to have glory, but it is hard.
To be honest, those people who go through big trials and can say "God has given me so much peace about____________" AND truly believe it, annoy me. I have never "felt" at peace when I have gone through change and pain, and I can't ever comprehend how someone can have so much peace.
BUT GOD.
For the first time in my life, I can truly say that I have peace in the midst of this trial. I AM that person that has annoyed me. It is almost an out of body experience where you see yourself and KNOW the reality of how unsettled you should be, but you aren't.
I have been so encouraged lately by what God has given me in His word. Today was no different. He gave me this verse:
Philippians 4:19
"And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus."
I can honestly say that I have done NOTHING to deserve the peace that God has given me. I wish I had some "magic formula" so that I could help others experience the peace I have right now, but I don't. All I know is that through this God is showing me His power and overwhelming presence in a way that I could never have imagined.
What is God asking you to surrender to Him so that He can give you peace?
