Pain.
Such a small word with so much meaning behind it. What is the first thing you think of when you think pain? For me, it is deep, emotional pain. I can honestly say that I don't think I have ever been in as much pain as I am right now. I am dependent on God every moment of every day as I am not sure what to do.
I was listening to a new country singer (think Justin Bieber, but country). He has a song called "Wanted" that I have been listening to over and over because it describes where I am at. In the midst of this trial, I just want to be wanted. I am not "feeling" wanted right now so it is making me feel very alone. It is not necessarily true, but in those moments of "defeat" I find that I feel lonely. So much of me wants to just break down and cry...to push myself through this awful pain and hope that it goes away, but then there is another side of me that can't. As I have listened to the song, God keeps reminding me that I am wanted by Him.
Since I liked that song so much, I decided to make a station on Pandora of his songs. The first song that came up was a song called "Cry With You". Although it is a secular song, I listened and could picture the Lord saying the words to me. He called me out and comforted me all at the same time. I wish I could say that I am going to bed lighter tonight and with a little less pain, but that is not the case. What I do know is that He will be here to cry with me. He sees my pain and as a parents hates seeing their child in pain, I know the Lord sees my pain and wants to comfort me. The question is, "Will I let Him?"
"Cry With You"
By: Hunter Hayes
When you try not to look at me
Scared that I'll see you hurting
You're not hiding anything, no
And frankly it's got me worried
Nobody knows you better than I do
I keep my promises, I'm fighting for you
You're not alone
I'll listen till your tears give out
You're safe and sound, I swear that I won't let you down
What's hurting you I, I feel it too
I mean it when I say
When you cry, I cry with you, with you
I'm not going any place
I just hate to see you like this
No, I can't make it go away
Oh, but keeping it inside won't fix it
I can't give you every answer that you need
But I wanna hear everything you wanna tell me
You're not alone
I'll listen till your tears give out
You're safe and sound, I swear that I won't let you down
What's hurting you I, I feel it too
I mean it when I say
When you cry, I cry with you, oh
Yeah, I cry with you
You need love tough enough to count on
So here I am
You're not alone
I'll listen till your tears give out
You're safe and sound, I swear that I won't let you down
What's hurting you I, I feel it too
I mean it when I say
When you cry, I cry
I mean it when I say
When you cry, I cry with you, oh
You're not alone, oh no, baby
Scared that I'll see you hurting
You're not hiding anything, no
And frankly it's got me worried
Nobody knows you better than I do
I keep my promises, I'm fighting for you
You're not alone
I'll listen till your tears give out
You're safe and sound, I swear that I won't let you down
What's hurting you I, I feel it too
I mean it when I say
When you cry, I cry with you, with you
I'm not going any place
I just hate to see you like this
No, I can't make it go away
Oh, but keeping it inside won't fix it
I can't give you every answer that you need
But I wanna hear everything you wanna tell me
You're not alone
I'll listen till your tears give out
You're safe and sound, I swear that I won't let you down
What's hurting you I, I feel it too
I mean it when I say
When you cry, I cry with you, oh
Yeah, I cry with you
You need love tough enough to count on
So here I am
You're not alone
I'll listen till your tears give out
You're safe and sound, I swear that I won't let you down
What's hurting you I, I feel it too
I mean it when I say
When you cry, I cry
I mean it when I say
When you cry, I cry with you, oh
You're not alone, oh no, baby
Tonight I am thankful that God gave this boy the talent to sing, the songwriters the talent to write down these lyrics as they are and that God reminded me that He is here to cry with me.
When you are in pain, do you allow the Lord to "cry with you"?
